I will temporarily be moving my base of operations (that is, infrequently posting random updates on my life that don't really give you any idea of what's going on) here. It's been in the plans for a while now for me to get rid of that old blog, which is attached to a yahoo e-mail account that I neither use nor plan on keeping around for much longer.
Also, this was typed up mostly on the iPad. So.
(the sorrows of young Werther and other things that aren't really relevant to my life)
It's strange but every time I sit down to type something about my life I feel a thousand times more tired. My fingers become heavier, I start thinking of other things that need to be done or things I've forgotten before that suddenly demand my full and immediate attention. Really, it's pretty exhausting.
But here. Here is where I'm at right now.
I will be quitting my current job on the 22nd of this month. I have 8 full working days left. Yes, I am actually counting. Knowing that I won't have to work here forever and ever hasn't actually made this job more pleasant but it has allowed me to ignore most of the bullshit coming from the higher ups and the customers. I never really thought of myself as capable of not caring, but in this case I honestly don't care. This is liberating.
I will be starting school again on August 16th. I will be going to University of San Francisco School of Law. I will actually have to do homework before I start. My feelings about this are somewhere between anxious and anxiously excited and very panicked. Though to be fair, anxious is pretty much a general state of being for me.
I have actually found a place to live in San Francisco that is not a 420 den or 1500 per month. This is a very serious win on my part. It's in La Playa, which is technically not the best area in SF. Except it's across the road from the beach. Is a predominantly Russian community and has a Russian grocery store and a Safeway across the street from my house. It's also close to Golden Gate Park and my campus and three different bus lines. Basically I have found a place that is pretty fucking magical if I do say so myself (which I just did).
Lucy the bunny has UTI ( urinary tract infection). I will be feeding her antibiotics for the next 14 days. They are banana flavored. She still doesn't like them. Honestly, I kind of don't ever want to be a mother. Being a pet owner is terrifying enough. I can't imagine having to go through something like that with a small child.
Also, hilariously, the rabbit doctor kept complimenting me on how calm Lucy was and how well I was handling her. Then again it has been nearly 6 years now, so I would hope I am just a little better with her now.
Speaking of the rabbit. It is ridiculously difficult finding a place in SF that accepts rabbits. I mean... okay, it's a rabbit. It can't be that much trouble. Also, well intentioned landlords who were telling me where I should and shouldn't live. And all the slightly creepy craigslist ads I've had to look through. Yeah I am really glad I don't have to do this anymore. Plus... last weekend I wasn't even sure if I'd be able to take Lucy with me and the mere thought of leaving her behind for long periods of time was incredibly disheartening. So much for priorities.
So at this point I am mostly done with all the important things I had to do this year, including getting rid of my wisdom teeth. Which was painful and unpleasant only when I started taking myself off the vicodin. The first day or so when I could just lie in bed and sleep and nothing hurt was actually really nice. Except now I still have huge holes in my gums and that's really annoying.
It seems like I manage to do things without being very clear on what I'm doing and why. And the less aware I am, the better it seems to turn out. I still sleep badly. Can't make myself fall asleep before 12 and then wake up in the middle of the night, but that's normal. I still can't really limit myself on the amount of tea I drink. So, as it ever was.
Except I am looking forward to living somewhere cold and overcast. This is really going to happen isn't it...?
I grew up in a state of disbelief.
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